Write On

Over thinker I am! Overanalyzing seems to be a forte (or downfall?) of mine. And that's what I did when I realized how much time had elapsed between the last post and this. Why so much white space for such a lengthy gap of time? Such silence! Maybe I've been avoiding writing because 'writing on' would push aside the last post and dishonor my friend somehow?

Writing on...even living on...can seem apathetic at times like this.

Then another thought. Maybe it's nothing more than a fear of failure...yep...here I go again. For if I don't write, I won't erase. And of course (to me) erasing is yet another reminder to how often I fail.

If only I could erase Fear !

But like the others whom I have loved and lost, my latest loss would never expect me to die merely because she had. Instead she would push me to carry on, to live...to write. So I must find the strength to get past such silly fears and look to bigger aspirations.

Lately I've been watching sports videos of people who have overcome various obstacles. I am constantly amazed at the strength some people have. It's especially impressive to watch runners with fatigue or injury continue a race even when they know winning is no longer a possibility. To them finishing is non-negotiable. Even if it means crawling, these people will pull up every last ounce of strength to cross that finish line. What inspiration!

Oh to find that kind of strength!

Winning may only be possible for a few, but finishing is realistic for all. To win is not always in your control, but finishing is always a choice. So 'find your strong'
and keep going...                         

*And to all my fellow fearful writers...'find your strong' and write on!

“Anyone can hide. Facing up to things, working through them, that's what makes you strong.” ~Sarah Dessen